Goodbye Summer! Hello September! Summer-Autumn-tangled thoughts!

Greetings everyone,

I don't know what should I talk about today... To be honest, I just look at the blank piece of paper before me , wandering about what shall I fill it with... At this moment, if I was a painter there would only be one thing I 'd like to draw: A little bit of blue sadness, illuminated with white brushes of  joy and laughter... It's this familiar feeling of the summer slowly coming to an end...

Our little summer company... Most of us left the previous week yet some still remain. As always, I 'd be the very last one to leave. As always I 'll try to absorb every single moment of the summer till it's very end. I 'll watch the small city being deserted little by little... The boats gradually disappearing from our coast. People leaving... The grass will grow wild again, and will soon be dancing to the will of the fall's wind. Soon our so loved azure sky will turn into a canvas of several shades of grey and heavy black clouds 'll start watering the earth with rain drops - all the savings they made during the summer will be wisely spend on every inch of land during the approaching winter.

Yesterday night I was with the kids - those of us who are left. It's a habit of us to spend every night at the beach. We are talking, playing games, having fun... Yet I always take some time off to watch the night sky. Oh, how I love the night sky! I love those stars! I feel like I could spend hours admiring their sparkling beauty! Always exclaim in surprise each time one of them is crossing the deep blue-black velvet of the night. This ravishing golden line separating the sky in two parts merely for some seconds and then vanishing, as if swallowed by darkness, as if the night will not tolerate anyone stealing away her own breathtaking performance. Can you believe it? Those falling stars, this wonderful effect that always takes us by surprise, it's nothing more that a single rock crashing in earths atmosphere while blazing up. A mere rock. Very similar to one of those we use to throw in the water just to watch them splashing the sea surface. A single rock putting up such an effort to make an impression. To curve its existence in silver and gold. To illuminate all it's way to oblivion. Wishes upon a star? I always wanted to wish upon a star. I even tried so many times. I always believed that those wishes will come true. But  while watching the falling the star all I can do is stare in awe and yell " Oh! Look!!! It's a  shooting star!"  with a smile! I constantly forget about my wish. Part of me feels as if I would be abusing the beauty before me if I took advantage of the stars "death" for my own small ambitions and wishes. What about this stars wish? It's wish to engrave it's existence in our memory? Yet, what if each star's fall is a human's wish burning to come true?

With all those questions running through my mind, I stare at the sky every night. So I did yesterday. I could feel an unsightly breeze, barely caressing the silvery surface of the sea. It feels as if its whispering softly a little secret in our ears: "Winter is approaching again...", it said, "Get ready! Summer days will end soon...". And this warning still echoes in my mind.

I like winter, but I kind of adore the summer and I can't help but feel a little depressed knowing that it's over once again. I 'll miss the sea, all the swimming and surfing and playing in the water until the next summer.... Also, fall is such a depressing season...!  Even if the earth is all dressed in gold, and the leaves are dancing around the streets, one can clearly sense that it's this moment of the year where the summer and winter collide and my hear is torn between the enchanting endless blue of the summer and the white majesty of winter (even though it barely snows where I am). Fall feels as if the earth goes back to sleep...

Yet I guess every season has it's own beauties. Summer 2015 we'll wait for you!!! Until then, Hello September! Surprise us! ;) 

-E.

(I just had to add this pic... as a Harry Potter fan I am! :D )

May I Share With You, My Little Experience?

It's been a long time since I wrote something here... Not sure if it was due to boredom or just loss of interest... Sometimes I find it so hard to express my thoughts that I end up deciding that any attempt is - and always will be - hopeless... Yet this decision is never final. I always find a way back to writing, trying to put up a fight against that hopeless ambition of mine.

In the past years - as I might have mentioned before - I had my greatest dream crashed despite all of my hard tries and efforts to chase it. I really did try my best. I even got so close. And yet the best of me was not enough to achieve my goal. When I raised my hand to grasp that dream of mine, it simply slipped away from my fingers! After that incident, I was kind of wandering in the world just flowing with life, waiting to see where all of this is going to end up to. Which is the final destination? I kind doubt there was any to begin with anymore. It's like a ship metaphor. I 've lost both my destination and my compass and I feel as if I am wandering in this endless ocean of life, following any route the wind on my sails chooses for me. Forgotten and lost for what seams like forever?

I had no real dreams ever since. I was too scared to dream. Afraid to try. Terrified to fail. It was around then that I got used to losing I guess. Let me state here that I am not complaining about anything. I am just stating some facts about that time 2 years ago. As for the dream I make such a fuss around? You may laugh if I tell you but I will anyway, cause I am not ashamed of my dreams, nor of my failures. My failed dream was (is?) to become a doctor. Does that sound childish? To me, it is the ultimate link between life, human and God. I'd have the chance to offer a new hope, another day, an other smile. Being a doctor means to have life flowing from you. I doubt there is any greatest reward than a simple "Thank you" and a smile after a successful operation. The greaest things, and the most valuable ones are not the expensive ones you see. Which would you value the most? A beautiful diamond or the smile of someone you love? Which would you be most sorry to lose?  To me those treasures of the heart: the memories, the feelings, the moments, are the most valuable things in life and the only memento we take with us after our journey here comes to an end. It's the heart and the spirit that defines someones wealth.

Yet, seeing the whole thing from where I stand now, I can see that I was not right to give up everything for one failure. I am sure now that life has a secret plan for everyone, even if it does not always agree to our own ambitions. Ambitions - that right. You see, one day it just occurred to me that some dreams are not as noble as they look. Some dreams are concealed ambitions. Of course this is not a rule - it's more likely an exception of the rule. Maybe I, myself, was punished cause I was too ambitious - because as a selfish being I am - I wanted to be the best. I always wanted to be the best in everything: In my grades, my job, in arts...  I tried e v e r y t h i n g. But there are so many things and so little time! So many directions I don't know which way to turn! Maybe, becoming a doctor is not my gift. Maybe I 'd become a really bad doctor. So by getting me so close to my dream yet failing anyway, life was trying to tell me that "You see? You are so close! But what you ask for is not for you! I got another plan - something you 'll be really good at."

Currently I am studying Pharmacy. I am about to get to the third year now. I still don't know where I am heading to, or what is to come next for me. Remember the ship without compass? The fact that I don't know my destination does not mean that there is none ahead for me. I 've learnt to trust this wind. He knows where I belong better that I do myself. I even dare to dream again! Both real dreams and concealed ambitions. I just give life a chance to show me what is the thing for me.

Being lost could be either a tragedy or an adventure - maybe even both. The point of view is the secret to make the difference. After all, even in fairy tales there are always adventures and tragedies before the happy ending, right? So why not perceive life as a fairytale? Our very own fairytale, with our very own happy ending. I always believed that the best way to know a place is to get lost in it. So let's get lost in the world together! Who knows? Maybe our paths meet one day. If not, we'll surely meet where all the fairytales and the dreams collide.

-E.C.

Carpe Diem, Today!

So here we go...! It's March already and I still can't believe it. In my mind I am still trapped somewhere in between Christmas and the New Years Eve. Isn't it strange? People get to go after everything: Fame, wealth, relationships... Yet the ancient demand and one of which leaded the alchemists to set the very foundation of science still remains, often passed unnoticed by the modern age Homo Sapiens. Time. The other one though still remains: gold.

There are moments when I look back and I feel as if my whole life until now was nothing more but the glimpse of a thunder. Just a sudden flash of light, disappearing without leaving any evidence of it's existence in the raging storm. I often feel as if the thread of time slips through my fingers so fast that forces me to run behind every moment. It's as if I am racing against the future while the past is vanishing behind the veil of oblivion, and I am just too busy worrying for all the things to come and the plans I am trying to make based on the unknown. Therefore, I forget that the only thing I have for certain is the present and the scrapbook of memories I'll create from this. I believe this is a common feeling for many other people as well.

Living in the past or the future; either way you cannot enjoy the moment. It's easy to fall in this trap. But it's about time to stop planning the unknown things to come and take action in creating our life based on all we have. In other words: Carpe Diem, grasp the moment, live now - don't leave it for later cause it may be too late by then. That's why I always thought that the greatest gift one can offer is his time, cause it's a part of their lives they'll never get back yet they are sure that it's worth giving it to us.

What is that engages life to beauty? All the little things that hide priceless treasures: The love behind every kiss, the friendship behind every hug, the kindness behind every smile... So, while you walk down the path of life remember: Fight whatever frightens you. Chase anything you ever wanted. Dream big and hunt those dreams until you catch them. Grasp every opportunity. But most importantly; never forget that life only credits the brave ones.

And remember to enjoy every moment! Cause it's unique in it's own special way! 

-E.C.

A Strange Post

Well, these days I  don't really get to have a lot of free time... It's exams season, which means that every kind
of hobby has to be put asside and the usual "exams pattern" of studying all day long becomes the main - if not the only one - part of your daily routine. As a result I neglected a lot of things I usually do in my everyday life...
Such as...

     
           


             ...Beautiful, long walks...







   
   
                   




                      ...Reading a book...






             

 





   
                             ...Writting...

                            ...Playing the quitar...

 
                        ...or trying to learn to play the piano ( Always                                                                               failing, by the way :p )

               ...Movie nights and series evenings...

 
   Yet, life does not have to be perfect to be                                                         wonderful! So...

       
             ...even when studying there are so many                         beautiful things one can enjoy! Such as...

     




       ... Tea ( well, that's great for all times! :p )

    ...Justified Overeating ( actually we might regret          this part every time we step onto the scale :p )

 

 

    ...But most importatly we learn new things!            Knowledge is indeed power ( <--- Funny quote                 on the left :p Well don't be evil though! :p )
           Learning new things is a wonderful thing!                 Understanding them... well that's priceless!
           Not to metion the satisfaction if succeeded!

   

                                         




             Plus, exams don't last forever! :)

                                             


       Sooo... Study hard! It's woth it in the end!








                                                          Well... Better get back to study...!
                                                                     Wishing you a wonderful day! :)

PS: Thank you for reading this! :)                                                                                                                           -E.